As am turning 31 within a week, am giving myself a chance to list some wants and don't wants as a celebration of my upcoming merry 30s..
i want to have real friends
i want to love "truly, deeply & endlessly "
i want to be loved "hopefully by the same person above!"
i want to travel alone "for a while"
i don't want to be taken for granted
i don't want any jerks anymore
i don't want any games or manipulation
i don't want to be pissed offff "at least not everyday!!"
i want to have a child "not necessarily through marriage :o) "
i want to visit my doctor again
i want to be left alone
i don't want to be left alone!! "reasonable!!"
i don't want silly people around me
i don't want to be hurt anymore
i don't want to be controlled by anyone "especially myself!!"
i don't want anyone to tell me things they don't really mean
i don't want to tell others things i don't really mean!!
i want to have a system in my work place
i want to study something new
i want to travel for a vacation "have i said that before?"
i want to travel
i want to travel
i want to travel...."now you can imagine how much, right?"
Ok, that wasn't easy.. but i deserve it..
Happy Birth Day Eno
Ok, now am totally surrounded in my office with people I don't know.. They are having a huge meeting in the NGO and they asked to use my office as well.. I couldn't say no but am going to kill 3ly as soon as they leave..! Now lets go back to what I was going to say at first place, being positive.. I decided 2 days ago to be positive regarding everything in my life, even my dislikes. My lovely friend Islam Omar the great life coach -and don’t ask much about the meaning of life coach coz it will take a whole post to explain it- gave me last week a movie based on a book called (The Secret) I believe almost everyone heard about that book and movie, Elmohim to make a long story short, what I learned when I watched that movie was something called the "Law of Attraction" it means that u attract what ever u r thinking about most.. Even if u hate it!! I truly tried that thing even before I read the book or watch the movie, I kept thinking about bad luck, car accidents, death and sadness.. I was thinking that I've had enough of blue days and I can't take it any more.. But guess what, it kept coming over and over every day and everywhere!! After watching the movie I started concentrating on the idea they said "thoughts becomes things", I just started monitoring my thoughts, not in a crazy way -yet- but in a simple way.. Catching myself thinking of bad things even to avoid them is not right.. I have to start thinking of what I want, what I deeply want and wish for, look for it everywhere and be ready to receive and welcome when it crosses my way.. Y3ny in my situation now, I know that more people will come to my office if I kept thinking about how much I hate 3ly and the noise he caused me with his guests, so I decided not to think about them at all.. I concentrated on writing my post, I wanted to finish a nice post as I planned at the first place.. I brought out my i-pod full of Fairouz songs, I stared at the board in front of me with pictures of the most desired 2 things in my life now hanged on and I continued writing.. I kept going and going.. Hearing no one.. Seeing no one till they just vanished.. They went out to have a coffee break with plans to finish their meeting somewhere else not to disturb me any more –or that’s what they said-.. Let's hope this plan works with everything else with same success :o)
بجد نفسي اعرف مين اللي علمني اركب عجل.. كل الاطفال اللي قابلتهم في حياتي في حد علمهم يركبوا العجل.. دايما باشوف المنظر ده .. طفل .. ولد او بنت .. راكب عجله و حد كبير ماسك العجله من ورا و بيجري وراه يوزنه و خطوه و التانيه يسيبه يبدل لوحده.. ويادوبك لفتين و يتكفي الطفل الجميل على جنبه هو والعجله!!ـ انا بقى مشكلتي اني طول عمري باركب عجل كويس جدااااا الحمد لله .. انما مش فاكره ابدا مين اللي كان بيمسك عجلتي و يسندني و الحقيقه انا كمان مش فاكره اصلا اذا كان ده حصل و لا لأ!!ـ المهم بقى في موضوع العجل ده.. اني فاكره كويس جدا لما كانوا ولاد خالتي يجيبوا عجلهم و ييجوا عندنا في الكومباوند اخر الاسبوع و نعمل مغامرات جباره.. و على اعتبار اني كنت الكبيره و انهم في منطقتي .. كانت المغامرات دي دايما تحت قيادتي الرشيده.. و غالبا ماكانت بتنتهي بمصيبه طبعا!!ـ فاكره كويس اننا كنا بندور على اماكن جديده نستكشفها .. و نطلع الجبال و نمشي على اثار خطوات الناس في الرمل.. و نحقق ونراقب.. و نحاول نربط كل اللي بنشوفه و نلاقيه باي قصه مرعبه ممكن نكون سمعناها.. في الوقت ده كان في اشاعات كتير عن بنات اتخطفت و شقق اتسرقت.. و طبعا كل الاهالي كانت عامله حظر تجول .. بس على مين..!!ـ افتكر اننا في طلعه من طلعات الجبل السريه بتاعتنا دي اكتشفنا حاجه زي العشه الخوص.. حد عاملها فوق الجبل و مغطيها بالبلاستك و دخلناها و احنا مرعوبين و رجلينا بتخبط في بعضيها.. و بعد خمس ثواني سمعنا صوت بيقرب و من غير ما نبص الصوت جاي منين و لا نبص حتى لبعضينا.. طلعنا نجري احنا التلاته و خدنا العجل و طرنا ولا كاننا احنا اللي خاطفين البنات و سارقين البيوت!!ـ علاقتي بالعجل اتطورت اوي مع الوقت.. يمكن في القاهره كانت فكرة ركوب العجل مستحيله.. انما ربنا يخليلنا الصيف و العجمي.. و الراجل بتاع العجل.. كانت احلى اوقاتي اللي باقضيها انا و العجله و الووكمان في وداني.. اسمع فيروز و منير و افضل الف و ادور من هنا لهنا.. جوه القريه و براها .. لحد ماتهد من التعب و اروح ارجع العجله و اقعد شويه عالبحر لغاية ماتلم على عضلات رجلي اللي هاتشيلني لحد البيت!!ـ حتى لما اتجوزت و سافرت.. العجل كان ليه دور مهم جدا في حياتي.. يمكن لانه كان من النقط القليله اللي كانت بتجمعنا.. و اللي كانت بتهون علي حاجات كتير.. و يمكن كمان كان موضوع العجل ده من اكتر الحاجات اللي حبيتها و احترمتها في السويد .. هناك تقدر تروح اي مكان بالعجله.. الطريق متجهز و فيه حارات و اشارات مخصوصه لمرور العجل.. يعني مكانش غريب انك تلاقي بهوات بالبدل الشيك راكبين العجل و رايحين شغلهم عادي جداااااا..ـ فرحت اوي..ـ و زعلت اوي..ـ لما لقيت مفتاح العجله لسه في ميدالية مفاتيحي!!ـ














